Ive got so many clothes at the moment, even im beginning to think ive got too much! This isnt really a problem for me, what I have a problem with is trying to find outfits that actually work. As much as I like putting on a nice frock and heels, they are best saved for nights out (as infrequent as they are) so when im dressing at home I go for a casual look. I have so many tops, vest tops, cardi's, trousers and so on but whenever I dress at home I always end up dressing up in the same few outfits. Part of the problem with this is the hair, I only really shave my body hair (which includes my chest) for special occasions because of the reactions I get and it seems most casual tops and dresses seem to like to expose this a bit. I have so many cute casual items that just leave my chest fur showing.
Today I spent ages going through my clothes trying to find a new combination for a change and I have actually found one! The only problem is its taken me so long to just find something I like that I cant be bothered to dress up further. Im dressed up, clean shaved, and ive even put a headband with a cute little bow on it on my shaved head but I think this is as far as im going to get today. The house is a mess and I cant be bothered to add to it with my makeup too. Tidying all this away is going to take ages as it is.
Maybe next week, and ill probably take some new photos too with my new camera.
Shopping
I dont really help myself by continuing to add to my collection! I went shopping yesterday by myself in town, im definitely getting a bit braver on that front. I ordered some black patent heels and a patent clutch (for a future night out maybe?) online and got them delivered to a local store in the city centre, and then went shopping for some clothes as well. I came back with a nice wine coloured drapey dress from New Look which is really flattering and goes really well with black tights and the aforementioned heels and clutch. I also bought a top which im unsure whether to keep or not, its meant to be loose but I dont think I really have the bum for it and it looks too baggy to me. Im not going to take it back straight away, ill have a think about it. I know im never going to look perfect so im just trying to decide if it looks nice enough.
I also bought some trousers as well from Vero Moda which at the moment is one of my favourite clothes shops (along with Vila, Pieces and Only who I think are part of the same company) but I think im going to have to stop going in there for a while, I think theyve figured out that im going in for myself. Its only a small store and theres a girl who ive seen in there a few times now who always asks me if I want help and gives me a knowing smile, and on my most recent visit when one of the guys rang up my trousers he smiled and said "wearing this on the weekend?". I laughed, smiled back and said: "oh no, my secret identity has been discovered, dont tell the missus!". We had a laugh about it but I think I might stick to shopping on their website for a while.
Website
I havent forgotten or given up on the website idea, ive just been having a think about how I want to approach it. I get the feeling there isnt really a template that I can use that will do all that I want it to do as far as the main feature is concerned, and its beyond my expertise. I might have to buy a base template and then pay another developer to customise it. Its going to cost me a bit so im considering my options. In the mean time ive just about finished the logo, I havent used graphic design software in years. I used to dabble a little in Adobe Illustrator, and have basically been re-teaching myself on open source software called Inkspace. Its taken me a while but im slowly getting to grips with it. Ive left the text part of it out since I dont want it to give any clues about what the site will be, but this is the general design. The black part is meant to be blurred but it isnt exporting like that for some reason. Also I might change the outlines to black to make them stand out more. Ive got a couple of different variations on the logo and I keep adding more.
Its mad isn't it that you can have so many clothes but nothing to wear. I had that problem because I bought things as I thought they looked good (and they did) but only on rail - sadly not always on me. It takes time to get to understand what works on you and often that needs help. I know what you are going to say, you don't want people **knowing** but if they know in a shop is that the end of the world? You are a good customer and it sounds like there is someone who could really help. You know there are others in this world who actually think people who live somewhere between two genders are really great people to know. We often hear so much about hassle and embarrassment when shopping - I have never ever felt that - just acceptance and kindness.
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I know what you mean. Part of the problem I think I have though when it comes to buying clothes is that I can be too critical of how they look on me, and send a lot of things back that I think dont suit me where they may actually look ok.
DeleteTo be honest, I have no problems with random people in shops knowing, its more just to limit any potential future complications. What if person in shop comes to speak to me about the dress I bought when I am shopping with friends, or what if random person in shop starts working where I work and tells colleagues of mine. Its all very unlikely but id rather play it safe. If I was a bit more out, I really wouldnt mind at all.
Easy for me to say of course but you have one life (as far as I know) and yet so often we limit, restrict, stop being who we are and what we want to do for others. Quite possibly others who wouldn't care and sometimes would embrace us even more because of who we are. ... IF .... small word
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